Ugh. Another night has passed with no sleeping. I fell asleep somewhere around 5:00 this morning. Even then I didn't sleep well. Maybe this will tell you what kind of sleeper I am. I need to go out and buy new sheets because I have rubbed two holes in them; one where my foot digs in and one where my elbow digs in when I roll over, which is probably a hundred times a night.
I did a sleep study once. I didn't sleep. I told the doctor I wouldn't sleep because I know I never sleep the first night in a new place. Anyway, in the morning, I learned from the technician in charge of me for the evening that the staff made fun of me all night. She had to make a note on my chart every time I moved, and I guess she didn't get much time to rest during the evening either.
Sleeping pills do not work for me. I've tried every kind, prescription, over the counter, natural remedies, you name it. There was one thing my doctor prescribed that worked really well until all of a sudden it started causing me to have upsetting jerky muscle spasms.
Wine works. I'm trying not to drink wine so much though because it also helps make me fat. Besides, when I drink wine every night I need to drink more and more to actually sleep. I wake up hating myself. Wine is not a good sleep medication.
You might think that after enough nights of not sleeping eventually I will start sleeping again if I just keep getting up at my regular time. Not necessarily. I went through a period of not sleeping once, and I made myself get up every morning and not take naps. I was sure that my body would get into a rhythm, and I would sleep again at night. It didn't happen, and my mental health deteriorated badly. I had, what I guess would be called in the old days, a nervous breakdown. I ended up on anti-anxiety medication and antidepressants, and I started seeing a therapist. I've learned that when I go through a period of insomnia, I need to catch sleep whenever I can, even if it is in the middle of the day.
My skin is also broken out right now. I've had eczema my whole life, been to countless doctors, tried countless therapies, both medical and natural, and I've never found a cure for myself. I've had long stretches where its gone into remission, and I've had extremely bad flares. Right now it's just annoying.
I'm not complaining or whining, just documenting what I'm experiencing right now because these are a couple of health issues that have plagued me through the years and contribute to my depression. I'm wondering if healthy living would create a spontaneous healing of these issues. I hope to find out.