Well, once again my weekend indulgences have shown up on the scale. BUT the jump up on the scale was a half pound less than last week's jump up. SO, overall, I'm down a half pound, sorta, in a way. I do need to approach weekends differently than I have been, and that's not new for me. Weekends have been a problem for me for years. I break my sleep schedule, I overeat, and I drink on weekends. I basically undo all of the good things I've done for my body during the week.
Wait. I just caught myself in a negative thought process that isn't helping. I don't undo every good thing I've done. I don't think that's true. I do disrupt some of the systems I've begun to put into place, though, and until I get those systems firmly embedded into my life, it's not helpful to take such a drastic departure from them.
Or maybe I'm being altogether too hard on myself. My period is due any second now. That could easily account for the weight gain. How about this? I will count the overeating I did this weekend, and there was one night of out of control eating, as a learning experience. Next time I'm in the same situation, which I certainly will be, I will handle it differently. I already have a plan.
That said, I'm trying to gear myself up to start an exercise program. I need something more than 5 minutes of yoga in the morning. The yoga is very helpful. It gets my blood circulating and deepens my breathing, which really wakes me up. I'm also noticing better flexibility and less pain in my feet in the morning. (My plantar fasciitis is back, resolved previously with daily walking and stretching.) I think it's time to add something more, though.
Three times last week, from three different sources, I got the message that exercise is daily medicine, not just a means of losing weight. (This article was one of the places the message appeared.) Exercise is a way of improving my mood and reducing stress, something that is as necessary to my well being as a pill that a doctor may prescribe for a medical condition.
Instead of thinking of it as something I need to do every day so that I can achieve the desired result of being a certain weight somewhere in the distant future, I'm going to shift my thinking. I will think of it as something that provides an immediate benefit. It immediately improves my mood and my self esteem. There are immediate and cumulative physical benefits, but the mental benefits are just as important.
I feed myself everyday. I sleep everyday. And now I resolve to move more everyday in an intentional way. That's the best promise I can make myself. I can't lock myself into a certain number of minutes or a certain type of activity, but I can promise to think about exercise differently and intentionally add more of it to each day.