Thursday, November 28, 2013

NOT a Happy Thanksgiving

I do not know what possessed me to get on the scale this morning.  I actually thought it would be a nice surprise.  I feel like I've been making progress.

256.6 lbs.

That is 4.2 lbs more than I weighed when I first weighed in on this blog.  It's 10+ lbs. more than I thought I weighed.  That would explain why I'm so sore and tired and why just walking down the hall and getting dressed makes me feels winded.

This news has wrecked my day.  I should have let myself have one more day of denial because now I have to be pleasant company for the Thanksgiving festivities, and I'm not feeling pleasant at all.

I think I need to go back to weighing myself everyday.  It is just too easy for me to put on blinders and not face what I'm really dealing with.

Maybe some of this is not my fault. I'm having so much trouble sleeping.  I've been moody, and PMS is worse for me than it's ever been.  I'm in those perimenopause years, so maybe hormones are working against me right now.  After doing some reading on the subject I ordered some progesterone cream.  It should be here at the beginning of the week.  I am hoping against hope that it makes a difference.

An article by Dr. Christiane Northrup:  Estrogen Dominance

I'm going to leave myself and you with this thought from the article:
"Remember, perimenopause is a time to reinvent yourself. This means investing time and energy in yourself, not everyone else."


  1. I am having a bad day, too Siddaleah. And I also have gained weight since starting the blog, but I have gained 5 lbs. Hugs

  2. Aw, I'm sorry you're having a bad day too, Eowyn. Shtinks, huh? Hugs back!

  3. Remember, too, that muscle weighs more than fat, so the weight gain doesn't just have to be things getting worse. I hope you can honour what you have achieved: greater self-love, more regular exercise, better coping with the day to day things :)

  4. Muscle doesn't weigh more than fat, but it does take up less space. (A pound of feathers weighs as much as a pound of iron.) :) But even if the weight gain is mostly fat with some water, those other gains you mention are certainly worth honouring: self-love, better coping. Fabulous!

  5. Thanks ladies. :-) You're right. A bad day and a shock on the scale doesn't undo the work I've done so far and is not a reason to give up.