I don't think that means juicing isn't a good start for me in my quest for health and more energy. It could mean:
- I have underlying issues that will take more time for the nutrients via juicing to address.
- I have underlying issues that the juicing will never address, and I need to explore other options.
- No amount of healthy juice will make me feel better as long as I continue to subsist on a steady diet of boxed mac and cheese, instant mashed potatoes, ramen noodles, and pizza.
Since I've made myself a recluse, my whole family has been eating a lot of garbage. My husband texts me everyday and asks if I need him to pick anything up from the store on his way home, and my answer is usually, "Dinner," and since he knows I usually mean something I don't have to cook, dinner is usually something processed and convenient. He also brings home stuff that will "fill the hole" for the other meals of the day; bread, canned soups, chips, and stuff like that. He does bring home a few whole food staples too, and they would be happily consumed by all if I would actually cook something.
This makes me feel really guilty. It is just one way my depression is affecting the health of my whole family. So, I think the next very important change I need to make is to get back to the chore of making a weekly menu and doing the weekly grocery shopping.
It's something I used to do routinely, but right now it takes tremendous energy and seems very overwhelming. There is a lot involved in getting to the grocery store that I have been avoiding for several months, things like wearing a bra, brushing my hair, finding clothes to wear that won't be featured on the newest post at the People of Walmart website, and being seen by other people.
It is going to require a serious commitment and some discipline. I'm going to hate it, but I think as the weeks go by it will make a huge difference.