Yesterday I found out that the dad of one of my best friends in high school died of a heart attack while he was riding his bicycle. Today I found out that an acquaintance of mine from high school died after an 8 year battle with breast cancer, and while I didn't know her well, we were friends on Facebook and I had been following her story. My husband and I are attending two memorials over the next two weeks for the two friends who died last month.
These things weigh on me. I know people die every day, and we all lose loved ones and friends. It's part of life, but when these things occur so close together, one on the heals of another that I haven't yet fully recovered from, the sadness of it builds up in my system on a cellular level and interferes with my ability to function.
I'm not trying to draw any conclusions, learn any lessons, or strive to improve myself through this. No, for once, I'm just going to acknowledge and honor this part of myself. I'm affected by this. I know I'm not suffering in the same way as those who lost a partner, a dad, or a brother, and I'm not looking for sympathy or support. I just want to say I'm sad.
I am very sad to hear this. It is definitely understandable to feel sad...who wouldn't? I hope you have some things that make it more bearable to sit with those hard feelings.
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MM
Sorry to read over on MM's blog that you have been sitting with so much sadness, and with your head spinning. Glad all is fine at a practical level, and that you are honouring your feelings.
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Cxx
Thanks, Chloe. Things seem to be getting better. I do feel grateful that my own family is well, but it's hard when so many around us are dealing with such difficult things. xoxo
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